In seeking His guidance I wander through the fields of my soul.
These planted fields are growing in the Word of God. But?
Do I bend my heart to Him?
Do I stand and question against His hand?
Do I look for the promises that He has given and fulfilled or question why others are still not completed?
Do I glory in the miracles He alone has placed me in and through, am I aware of the miracles awaiting me in this very day?
What do I do in the in-between times? These times when I am waiting for answers?
Why do I even seek?
Could it be that I am walking in this world simply aware that I want to be more in tune to Him?
Is questioning 'How can I get there?' the goal?
Is it possible that simply coming to Him and crying out "I want to know YOU better. I want to listen as You guide me. I want to be aware of You." Could it be that these are the most important actions to take in seeking Him?
I will never know His perfect ways. He tells me clearly my ways are not His. But the seeking. The seeking is the juice of the experience.
In seeking Him I cry out, I look under and through, I observe and evaluate.
I study, and glean truths I would never have seen. I build, one brick at a time, a way to walk that comes with trust and obedience.
I once was young and now I am older. I know some ways are not His. I know that some ways are. But there are still caves I am forging through. I am still battling fears. Surely if I was stronger I would not be battling these fears again.
But I am not. I am human and frail.
And in the midst of my frailty He holds me. He comes with His shepherd's staff and wrestles me out of my distress. He speaks over me with words like:
Ps. 46 - He is my refuge and my strength, a very present help in time of trouble.
Deuteronomy 31:8 - It is the LORD who goes before me.
Zephaniah 3:17 - The LORD my God is in my midst, a mighty one who will save, He will rejoice over me with gladness; He will quiet me by His love; He will exult over me with loud singing.
Do I take Him at His word?
For you see in Psalms 34:10 His word says: Those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.
These words of encouragement are spread throughout His word and I will stand on them in this time of waiting for guidance.
Because God's Guidance IS a slow and certain light.
Book recommendation: God's Guidance - A Slow and Certain Light by Elisabeth Elliot
Because He is the I AM,
Robyn Rochelle Cox
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1 John 2: 15-17
15. Do not love this world nor the things it offers you, for when you love the world, you do not have the love of the Father in you. 16. For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the Father, but are from this world. 17. And this world is fading away, along with everything that people crave. But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever.
1 John 2:28
And now, dear children, remain in fellowship with Christ so that when he returns, you will be full of courage and not shrink back from Him in shame.
Imagine that day when Christ will return. He will you know. He will return. Where will I be when it happens? Where will you be? Where will this world be? Will it be tomorrow, 20 years from now, or centuries in the future? No one knows. But when I read these words from John it always makes me wonder if it could be in my life time and, if it is, will I heed this advice?
I want to.
I want to remain in fellowship with Christ. I want to be full of courage and not have to shrink back from Him in shame.
We have been given a warning here. Don't love the things of this world. It is as simple and as hard as that. We have been given great insight into wisdom living in this passage. However, this wisdom can be overwhelmed by the cares of this world.
We usually acknowledge those 'cravings for physical pleasure, and everything we see' as unwise. We say to ourselves: "Be careful, stay away from those things." In the Christian world there are those standard 'taboos'. These are easy for us to see as things that are needed to be 'given up'.
But what about the cares of the world that are not frivolous? What about those places of pride in our achievements and possessions that we hold so close to our hearts?
Those cares of this world that are not frivolous? I'm referring to those that are given as important to the belief systems we are grounded in. Doing good in our community, being of service, buying a home for our loved ones to live in, finding a partner to do life with...
Things like family, community, caring for the poor, sick, hungry. The list of good deeds goes on.
I remember having great pride over some really good things in my past.
I am taken back to a rainy day in the early years of the turn of our century, @2000. — A really rainy day.
As a single mother, I took great pride in being romanced by God and *enlarging my tents through my teaching position, my home, and especially my kids. I taught a Bible study in my home every Wednesday evening and I loved the women that came and did life with me there. My home church was grounded firmly in the Bible and it was growing rapidly. We as a body of believers were being challenged to listen to God in ways we had never done before. I had wonderful book mentors during these years, like A.W.Tozer, George McDonald, Maj. Ian Thomas, Eugene Peterson... and I took pride in learning from them.
But nothing changed and called me to *enlarge my tents so much as a mission trip to Europe. These pieces were all stepping stones, but the final push was the call I heard after traveling to Holland in 2000 with our church's youth. It wasn't right away, it took some time, but it was there and the more I begged God to clarify it, the more real it became.
On that rainy day I was re-reading the paperwork I had received from Greater Europe Mission, a mission organization I was praying about joining. Every inquiry made was a door I anticipated to be closed, yet it led to open door upon open door. The paperwork I was re-reading was the final agreement to become a full-time missionary in Europe.
Selling the home God had allowed me to buy? my car? most of my belongings?Leaving my three young adult children?Leaving my home church, and all of those women in the Bible study I loved so dearly? I was overwhelmed with the reality that God was calling me to leave all of these.
But the greatest sacrifice of all was in my heart that no one knew. Marriage. By signing that paper I just knew I was signing away the possibility of ever marrying again. Because, I would be a missionary and the people I would meet as a missionary would not ever be interested in marrying a divorcee. And I was a divorcee and had been alone since 1988.
All that I was letting go of were good things. None were frivolous.
But God called me at that time to release these very good things.
I find it interesting that the one thing that caused the greatest tears was this view of re-marriage. The thought that I would never marry again was so painful, so gut wrenching, I basically laid over my red-prayer-chair-ottoman and could not stop crying. But, His Still Small Voice did not silence. I listened and signed, mailed the paperwork off, and was accepted. I was commissioned to Greater Europe Mission with Women's Ministries in 2003. God continued to *enlarge my tents.
What did I learn from this experience? Hold people, positions, possessions, and possibilities loosely. Nothing but God need be the driving factor of my life.
It does not mean I do not have them. Good grief, God even brought another man into my life to love me and for me to love. And people think God doesn't have a sense of humor!
But, I want to be able to stand courageously and with no shame when Jesus returns for His bridegroom.
He has romanced me for so many years and I want to continue being loved into loosely holding even those things that are considered good.
*enlarge the place of your tent...Isaiah 54 read it here! biblehub.com
God has not stopped *enlarging the place of my tent. But since that day of surrender, I have to admit, nothing has ever gripped me so greatly and caused me to realize He was calling me into something beyond. I don't ever want to forget it.
I don't want to forget it, because it lead me into a place deeper and more wonderful than I had ever known. And the more I remember it: He is more precious to me. And, amazingly enough, I value those really good things even more. I just don't hold on to them so tightly. They take their rightful place in my heart.
When I stand in front of Him on the day He returns. He will call me, and any who have followed into something so much more and way beyond.
Praise be to God, the One and Only Three in One.
Because He IS the I AM, i am
robyn rochelle cox
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I don't know about you, but I struggle with fear.
Fear drove me for many years and sometimes that ole' feeling still pops up its ugly head and causes me to shake, rattle and roll.
And because I am human I succumb.
Succumb to: questioning
WHAT HAPPENS TO YOUR WORLD WHEN YOUR LIFE IS TURNED UPSIDE DOWN BY A HEALTH PROBLEM?
Two years ago I discovered the cough that was keeping me up all night, not allowing me to talk for very long without cracking and again breaking out into a cough was not a cold, acid re-flux, or even allergies. It was a rare neurological disorder called Spasmodic Dysphonia.
My teaching career as I knew it, my missionary career as I had been doing it, was over. The only for sure remedy is vocal rest.
This shocked me into asking lots of questions like, Who am I? What am I supposed to do with the rest of my life? Where do you want me God? Can you still use me God? What in the heck are you doing here God? I don't get this! — Don't worry, it is ok to ask God questions and even to get upset with Him, He knows you are anyway, might as well be honest with Him. :-) We are in the company of one of those powerful people written about in the Bible, Job. Go read the book, Job asked God questions, and he also complained!
I have been interested in the internet for about 11 years and have had a blog since 2005. Since I am not able to teach anymore, I began to wonder if God could use me with my writing on the internet.
For the last 6 months I've been fearful of opening a new internet business. I have researched, I have taken classes, I have probed other blogs and other businesses. But nothing has calmed my fears except a day by day reading of the word. I have been amazed once again at the fruitful endeavor of reading the bible. As God calmed my fears I was able to continue to ask questions, but questions that moved me from introspection to action.
How could I help people on the internet? Should I really learn how to make a webpage? (an idea I'd been playing with for about four years)
This brought me into more questionings like: What is the purpose of a webpage? Are we really called to have a webpage? What will the parameters be? How vulnerable am I willing to be? How do I learn how to do this? What has my life proven I'm good at?
And then the whole business side of the questions (which I worked through with my husband who is the backbone of the business side of this page): Do we charge money and why? Profit or Non-Profit and why? How much is too much, too little? Do we use this credit card app or that one? How do we get these apps plugged into our webpage? How and when do we push PUBLISH?
Ohhhhh the questions.
But aren't questions part of the spice and joy of life? I am not God. My questions constantly drive me to Him who is God. So, the questions have drawn me further and further into Him.
I've soaked on these two passages:
1O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
2 You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
3 You see me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
4 You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, Lord.
5 You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!" NLT
1 John 3:18-20
18 Dear children, let’s not merely say that we love each other; let us show the truth by our actions. 19 Our actions will show that we belong to the truth, so we will be confident when we stand before God. 20 Even if we feel guilty, God is greater than our feelings, and he knows everything." NLT
Yes, I can trust that God knows me, in fact, God knows everything.
Because He is the I AM, i am
robyn rochelle cox
Blessings on your day,
Robyn Rochelle & Biff Cox
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Robyn Rochelle Cox
WHOSE AM I?