God does not send us into the dangerous and exacting life of faith because we are qualified; He chooses in order to qualify us for what he wants us to be or do." Eugene Peterson
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After I get all of the mutating missionary blogs from the past re-posted here, I will continue writing fresh ones. Enjoy the review...
Robyn Rochelle Cox
Loving God in the Momen
Thursday, March 8, 2007
My daughter has been the hospital off and on since Thursday of last week. I didn't know about some of these visits - just the one last week... until last night. I got a message from my oldest son last night. She is back, has had 4 CT scans in the last week and they still don't know what is going on. It has something to do with her spinal cord - all very unknown, can't figure out kind of stuff. I can DO absolutely nothing here. I could DO absolutely nothing there.
But as I stop this day to get with my Lord, My GOD - to lay this mother's heart down before Him. I pray for her healing - He is the God of the unknowns. Please join me in praying that we as a family will be wooed to:
Love the Lord our God with all our heart and with all our soul and with all our mind and with all our strength.
This I trust. For if we can do this - all else will be in line.
I thought it interesting this morning when I opened my e-mails to send out a prayer request to all of my friends and family - I found this from a dear friend in Baltimore. It is one of those 'silly pass it on e-mails' but the cord that it struck in the very depths of my heart this morning made me decide to pass it on to you - because - it brought all of the love that I have for my daughter to rise up and overflow from my tear-filled eyes. If you are not a mother, just know this is from a mother's heart...
Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom.
Well, that just about says it all - all except this:
Laying my mother's heart down before the God of the Universe - I do know that He loves her even more than I do.
And He is trustworthy, faithful, good. He is ALL Trustworthiness, All Faithfulness, All Goodness, All Power and Might, All LOVE!
And after 26 years, and more joy than one mother has the right to have for one daughter - this mother's heart desires to Love the Lord My God with all of my heart and my soul and my mind and my strength...
May He be glorified in our days
my eyes brim over -
tears spill out
Posted by Robyn Rochelle E. at Thursday, March 08, 2007
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