God does not send us into the dangerous and exacting life of faith because we are qualified; He chooses in order to qualify us for what he wants us to be or do." Eugene Peterson
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Right Where I Am
I've been back in Germany for one week.
It has been a soul searching week. I have revisited much of my life, slept, prayed, and asked God for wisdom and guidance in the days to come.
Pondering the road that God has brought me through, I revisited some old poems I wrote to Him during a really hard time in my life. This particular writing I would like to share.
I can handle...the dark
I can handle...the dawn alone here in my bed
I can handle...you leaving
I can handle...our children’s cries in the night
I can handle...bills coming due
a door with no knobs
a blown radiator
weeds in the lawn
Not because I am strong...
Just because You said I could...
You are the dawn...
You are the light
penetrating the dark of my world...
Your hand I hold in my lonely bed.
robyn rochelle eubanks
February 8, 1989
I think it is interesting how one must really be healed before one can share the deepest hurts of one's heart. I pray that He uses whatever hurts have been healed for His glory in this country I live in.
I think it is also interesting that His hand is still the hand I hold in my lonely bed. But, I guess I can honestly say I might still be alone, yet it is not so lonely anymore. Except sometimes... and then I cry out again. And as always He is there to meet me - right where I am.
A little about me
I am in the world almost every day. Okay, daily.